Just blowing some steam.

Laser Targeted Guidance

So I wasn't gonna post today, but Helen went and saw my posts and reminded me that I haven't posted in a while. So that confusion of the last post is still definitely bugging me it's weird, I definitely feel like I am going to have to do it to just get it off my chest soon.

But with that said now I'm going through something else, cause the other day I was thinking about Afghanistan and I thought damn we've got it made we go on with our lives as if we aren't at war yet people in Iraq and Afghanistan are experiencing the war every day of their lives right now. So a thought passed through my mind. I have not told anyone that this has gone through my mind. Bear with me for a sec don't go crazy, but thoughts of joining the armed forces has passed through my mind. My rationale for this is not for some patriotism that's a minor reason I don't really want to fight for people who forget that people are suffering over in other places I really want to do for the people of these areas where they have family dying, I want to do my best to help them in this most dire time of need. But idk this is just a confusing and tough time in my life and I'm not really sure about anything.

I went on Emmaus last week and that really helped reconnect myself with God. It was definitely the greatest of all my Emmaus retreats and it brought me more humility and insight into how God works. I love all of my brothers and sisters in God and I am truly happy that I have acknowledged that God is working in my life, so I'm going to ask him for guidance through this confusing time in my life.

Confusion

So definitely one of the most confusing times in a while man. And my boys just furthered the confusion. I've been told the same thing before by other people and it didn't work (granted with two of the last three times it was cause I was a bonehead). Not only that but doing what I was advised to do would go against what I believe and preach. Do I keep to my ideologies stubbornly and go against my desires or do I go and do something for myself without thinking of another person for once. I don't know man it's really confusing as hell.

Well to help clear it I should just go play some Modern Warfare tommorrow :D

Lost and Found

Soooo crap it's been a month since I last posted haha, uh a lot of stuff has happened in that month so the following will be a basic overview of everything that was lost and stuff that I've found.

First of all, I've been getting a lot of questions from girls about my love life lately, which I found slightly awkward and just would like everyone to know that yes I am single and there is somone that I am crushing on. Actually there are a couple of them, but one really stands out. Now here's my problem with the love life, ladies listen up if you're one of the ones who was interested and are reading this, I really don't focus much on it. Simple as that like I know that if I wanted to I can get a girlfriend, but right now it seems like it's too much of a hassle no offense to the girls, but idk I'm going to focus a little more on that soon... just not right now. I know it makes me sound like a nonchalant jerk, but it really isn't that way I just feel like I've seen too many people rush and screw up and there is just so much college stuff going on that I haven't focused on that at all. It's been like this for a while now but pretty soon I'm gonna go for it.

Speaking of college stuff, there is a bit of bad news on that part...... I had to withdraw from a class. Yep I know I'm terrible, but it was just not going well for me in that class. I will make up the credit next semester of course, but the late start and everything threw me off with the rhythm of the class and I never caught up to it. On a brighter note withdrawing from English left me open to do better in the rest of my classes. I've been doing great in theology and management Philosophy pretty good and in Intro to Legal Studies that one test that we took is hanging over me like a spectre I need more assignments in that class to make up. Also freeing up more time has given more time to the party haha.

Speaking of party haha let's just say I was "pleasant" a couple of weeks ago... for the record I'm a fun drunk... to bad you'll never see that Rey ever again... the end.

Another note I'm really serious about finding a job now. So if you know of somewhere I can work in the Bronx with flexible hours let me know, because I'm in serious need of a cash flow.

Other than that I've been feeling pretty good... I need to catch up with my friends and have some real talk with KRC I miss those guys so much, so if you guys are reading this we desperately need an Emmaus Madden Night man I've got stuff to tell ya.

Oh and another thing I wanted to write about! I hate the fact that little things send people off into stupid hissy fits where they don't want to talk to you ever again afterwards.... You know what I say to that... okay... simply okay like this person has done it before so It's nothing new... I'll give her a month or two to get over it and she'll probly text me some random chain letter asking me to rate her or somethin again... whatever I'll be here and I'll still greet ya with a smile. This will be the last you hear of this incident though.

I've found this insatiable need to read now too. And I love it.. like before I loved reading, but now it's like another level of love. I find out so much through reading that it's like I want a book in every subject now haha... (just wait until I send out my wish list) and reading the Times now too which keeps me up to date on world affairs as well as gives me ideas on what to do with my weekends haha I love it.... It's great.

All in all I'm happy with where I am now in life I've lost some of the baggage holding me down and found so many possibilities.

Thoughts on a bus ride

So I’m on the bus while writing tihis and a thought just occurred to me. Everyone always says life is too short blah blah blah I think that’s crap. Life is long as heck it’s just that we get too wrapped up in routine that we don’t do all the possible things we can do. Take sex for example teens get so wrapped around the thought that life is too short so “I have got to experience sex now”. They thnk that sex is a right for them, so much so that now it’s become a staple in our society that’s it’s weird or uncool to be a virigin past your twenties. I say eff that sex is not a right given unto us all. It’s an experience, just like everything else in life. Don’t get me wrong I hope to one day meet a beautiful girl for meand then we can go animal crazy (I hope she’s a freak lol… but not too freaky cuz then that’s scary) but I’m not gonna go around chasing every ass or every pretty face or those 36D’s it will happen when the time is right. OR I may end up never experiencing sex at all, but then I could experience tens of thousands of things that would be way more fun than sex. Life changing experiences or simple stuff like piling all up on your friend s on a rock just talking taking pics and chilling (if you’re reading this you know who you are : ] …) As for all you people wrapped up in your parties and your drinking till you throw up and your random sex encounters. Good luck to you I hope all goes well, just don’t complain that life’s too short when all you’er doing is a routine of the same ish over and over again. Just sayin.

Health Care issue

As a lower middle class college student, I feel that health care should be offered to everyone even if they cannot afford the expensive plans the insurers have. My parents on paper have enough money to pay for their own health care, but in reality it is a strain. The bills and mortgage and all that goes into managing a family makes having to pay for health care on top of that a strain on our lives. I am afraid that when I get out of college I won't have insurance for myself. I already have college loans that are going to end up putting me in debt. Health insurance is an issue for me because, if I lose it not only do I lose the ability to go to the doctor or the dentist, I also cannot go to my rehabilitation for my hip that was dislocated this past March. With the money I will owe after college it is also going to be a strain to pay for my own health insurance. Everyone has a right to function normally. People should not be hampered and handicapped by health issues because of a lack of money. As college students who see diversity everyday and also see handicapped people on our campuses everyday, don't you feel that every day functionality is important? We cannot allow this important right to be lost for people just because the financial backing is not there. The truth is that many americans don't have health insurance and cannot function normally because of it... We have to help out our fellow Americans and change this soon.

Another aspect of health insurance that has been getting a lot of attention lately due to the outburst from Joe Wilson. As an immigrant to the United States, I agree with Mr. Wilson that illegal immigrants should not get all of this health care. However, I also believe that with the input into our economy that immigrants have they should however not be denied treatment. I believe that with them signing up for this health care that they should be signed up to become legal residents of the country. Because honestly this country does have a flawed immigration system that I have experienced myself. So with the fact that they make money for the government in other ways than just taxes and the fact that the immigration system here sucks I don't believe that we can completely leave these immigrants out of the picture.

Rey Rey becoming a monk!

Haa no I am not gonna go to the extreme but I did go to a meditation... class? I guess you can call it that.

I went because my favorite class' professor invited the class to go as a student activity thing she has going on... only me and this other guy Noah ended up going >.< but I went in not knowing what the hell meditation was about... so the instructor- Hattower I think was his name... he starts explaining what it's like and asking around the circle for people's names you know the usual pleasantries... and I'm diggin it and then we get to the actual meditation and I'm all zenned out and just with myself no one in the room even existed at that point for me just me and the occasional passing of thoughts.

The result? I love it! I'm making it a part of my daily routine cause the way I felt afterwards is just amazing to me.. no worries no judgements just me it was beautiful I have to say it is the first time I've felt that way in a while if not ever! I definitely recommend meditation to anyone reading this it's a great way to get yourself and clear your mind. I have decided to go to this meeting every Wednesday and anyone going to St. John's reading this should try it as well they meet every Wednesday in room 119 of Marillac.

Man the stuff that I'm learning through college is simply amazing... I love it!

Beginnings of a new stage

So I'm into my second week of college and I'm just getting settled into the routine of the work and the times that I go to bed and wake up. I'm loving the experience though because it's like you have an authorative figure yet they aren't constantly on your back with the assignments... I'm responsible for keeping tabs on what and when things are due when there are tests what readings I'm responsible to know and it makes me want to do these things instead of dreading the fact that I have the professor on my shoulder forcing me to do things or constantly nagging. Then of course there is all the stuff there is to do on campus! It's like you really can't be bored because there's always something new to try or an event taking place and I absolutely love it. I feel like I'm definitely taking a turn for the better in my life in both intellectually and socially. It has surpassed my expectations and provided me food for thought.

Just recently I was having a conversation with my godfather about how humans are diconnecting from everyday life... all sprung from an article that I read in English class which I otherwise would not have read. It's like this we are becoming so reliant on our technology that we don't bother remembering birthdays numbers addresses and when we want to know something we just look it up on google no more going into in depth research on something. Honestly if I didn't have my cell phone or my laptop I would not be able to communicate with barely anyone because I know no numbers by heart and addresses are even worse. And on the topic of google... it is becoming what the oracles were to the greeks... wanna know the weather tommorrow ask google, wanna what illness you are suffering from ask google, wanna know what you should name your child! ask google. Don't get me wrong google is an awesome tool that I believe we should use less I am going to make a concious effort to look into things myself more in depth and I think the rest of us should try to also.

So yeah that's just one thing that sprung out of my college class. And there's management which I have to write a career plan for and it's not one of things I've thought of doing which everyone should do, but weirdly I hadn't so that's good that it's mandatory cause I would have done it sooner or later, but it's better now rather than later, and I get credit for it too.

So if I had to rate my classes so far it would have to be English comp would have to be my favorite because it makes me think and brings in other subjects into the class so I'm not stuck on one subject Least favorite would have to be philosophy it's so freaking boring and it's just all over the place right now which really gives me a headache cause I get confused as to who the heck she's talking about.

Other than that I've joined the legal society club which helps with the whole law major thing. And looking forward to taking a judo class on Tuesday. The whole span of things available to do is amazing... In short I love college.

Anyways that's my college life these past two weeks there are other stuff, but it's too much to post.

Political Machines

So today I was watching president Obama's address to Congress which I had missed on tv so decided to watch it today. Couldn't help noticing that as I was listening to Obama say that he had been thinking upon the letter written to him by the late Ted Kennedy if it was really true was Obama the person really thinking upon the letter or was it just a political stunt by Obama the president as some say.

Politics has taken away the humanism from the people involved with them they are no longer people. Everything they do is a part of some hidden agenda. I hate thinking of it this way but that's just how I feel like they are political machines that would say things just to make people think of them in a better way. No matter how much I like Obama that little shadow of doubt has always been there whether he's being honest as a man or just playing his role as the Head of all the other machines.

And it's like these machines are programmed to agree with their manufacturer a.k.a their political party and disagree with the evil other side... I'm tired of it having to hear one side say the same thing over and over again and not have a single individual speak and hear of his own thoughts about what is going on.

I wonder if these androids have lost all humanity and just say what they're programmed to say or if they really do see and feel the problems of the people they are supposed to represent.