Letter to no one

You asked me the other day why I called you a jerk. Well I told you there was no reason it was just random sillyness from me. But that wasn't true I called you that because I feel like you're toying with my emotions. I never know what your intentions are. And I don't trust you any more. You've hurt me multiple times and I can't bring myself to let you in again. I love you. But it hurts to do so cause I feel imma get hurt. I don't know I'll be happiest with you but it hurts to be fooled again.